What if murder was just swept away?

What do you do when you saw murder as a child? You forget about it and push it to the backof your mind. Until one day it creeps forward peice by peice forcing you to remember scenes a bit at a time but all in the wrong order. I could swear I witnessed two murders as a child. One was of a man being stabbed in a ware house. The images I remember of that were of an average sized white house with an alley way next to it, its relevant but I dont know why yet. Followed by the murder of a man, he was stabbed, then I look again to see Piggy covered in blood and a body floating down the river at the back of this warehouse. I run away and hide in a tree. The rest is a blank. The second is in a garden of a family member, Im not sure whos garden it was. The grass was really tall and theres a yellow and red plastic car outside. Then out comes a man from the back door and grabs a big thick branch from the overgrown grass, then rams it in the stomach of another man. There was blood pouring from his mouth then he fell to the floor. He wasnt breathing and as before, the rest is all a blank. Ive spent a lot of time trying yo go over it step by step and each time some more information is revealed. But only a little. I suppose its better than nothing. Ive not told a soul about this until now. I suppose airing this thoughts and experiences are bringing out more memories I had hoped to move on from. But to move on one must first confront things before going past them. Now is a good a time as any to try.